Strength from within....

Well last night I was half way through writing on here. I had a post almost complete. I was saying how Clare had been round and still looked so burdened by her situation and the constraints being put on her. Anyway, that was last night.
Then, just for a brief moment, Clare found some of that inner steel that I used to see so much of. She had gone up to Crooks Peak and wandered around in the woods, doing a lot of soul searching, when she got a message from John. She explained that she was suffering and he came over to see her. From somewhere Clare found the courage to tell him that she wasn't ready for a relationship, and that she couldn't move in with him either - he then came out with all the classic pressure statements like "after all I'VE DONE FOR YOU!" etc. basically still going about things in the same way as before. But Clare stuck to her guns and is now free to find herself, deal with her own emotions, and get her life moving again.
I'm so proud of her. It took enormous strength to do that.

There is one more hurdle for her though - she has agreed to meet him tonight. Now he will have had 24 hours to prepare something here, so I'm worried about what he is going to do. I really hope she just stays in the pub and talks there, because he will no doubt pressure her into going somewhere private so he can use the emotional pressure he is so good at. Clare needs to be rational and calm and not pressured into anything at the moment, she is too fragile. The most important thing for Clare is to mend. She needs to put her life back together in her own time, and not be forced into any pressure situations as I don't think she would take much more of this.

We are going to have Sunday lunch together today, and I really pray she had a good night's sleep and feels refreshed enough to make more forward steps, and also have enough strength to deal with today.