Not going to happen...

Well tonight it is supposed to end - Clare is going to meet Jon and tell him it's over. But is she?
You see, it all starts out clear and directed at the start of the day, and then her mind fades and she starts to doubt herself, culminating in her carrying on this spiral of illusion and malcontent. No wonder her chakras are blocked. All this negative spiralling energy is dragging her further into the depths.
I don't understand how she can continue to be like this - it is obvious to her how she is feeling and also now she is complaining of feeling like a dirty person, and she feels unclean and hideous, but has continued to do the things that make her feel this way.
Tonight is her one chance to stop all that. I have a feeling this is her last chance before entering the road that has no exit. No place to do a u-turn. Once in this alley way she has to deal with the consequences.
I have no real idea if she will see it through. Something inside me tells me that the intent to end this is fading as the day draws on, and she will make compromises and not go through with it. It will most likely be her downfall and ultimately the end of our friendship. She is being poisoned, I can feel it in my stomach, the disease, the dirt, the toxic sludge restricting her spirituality. I feel the presence of this growing as the day goes on. She will get ready tonight and make herself look beautiful for him, and then who knows what happens. I know what happened the other night.
Her final test has arrived. Make or break time. The truth is in her heart, but whether it gets to her head before the toxicity takes her, I cannot say.
Please let the guiding lights show Clare how to be true to herself and rescue her from her spiral of torment and the grip of this darkness. Let the true sound of love break through her blindness and the great natural law of the universe influence her heart and open her eyes.
I value Clare as a person and a friend, my closest friend. I am not ready to lose her, and I pray to all the spirits to assist her tonight to be free of her restrictions and be guided by the truth.